“Memories are what warm you up from the inside. But they're also what tear you apart”.
- Haruki Murakami.

God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change; courage to change the things I can; and wisdom to know the difference. Proud daughter.

Tuesday, July 08, 2014


Assalamualaikum awak yang tengah bace ni. ;)

Hi ladies, it's been quite a while since I last posted here, been extremely busy w works and assignments lotsa lotsa haha rase macam busy giler kan padahal tkdela busy mane pn hukaloh. 

So tonight I nak share pasal satu movie ni adapt dari novel.
"The Fault in Our Stars" 

Mesti penah dengar kan? Hihi actually cite ni tk release lagi kat msia tapi I dah nengok dahhhh huahua. Cited kannnnn.

Teringin sgt nak beli buku ni nak baca buku ni tapi sedihh sebab haritu pergi tengok buku ni dah habes sobs tkde rezeki. Punya lah semangat mintak dwet kat abah nak beli buku ni haha so tkpelah next time ade lagi kot kan kan kann dah jangan sedih sedih 

Nak I cite tk? HAHA kalau tanak tutup pejam mata kalau nak, baca.
Review jelah eh. 

Cite die camni. 

Satu hari ni, Hazel ni (nama penuh Hazel Grace Lancaster, 16 y/o) kena pakse ngan mak ayah die suruh join support group yg mule mule die tk suke and tk participate pn. Hari second datang baru die jumpe dengan Augustus Waters (17 y/o, ex-basketball player and amputee) Hazel ni die sakit cancer and die kena angkut oxygen tank tu ke mane mane je die pegi sebab kalau tk die tkleh bernafas. Die start sakit time umur die 13 y/o and everytime Augus tu tanye die pasal hidup die mesti die start dengan cerite pasal cancer mase die umur 13 tahun fuhh sedihh haha kelaka pn ade jugak sebab Augus tu sangat laaaa kelaka. Haha and part die flirting eyes and Hazel dekat suppor group tu pn kelaka jugak luls. Gus, why you're so funny?

Augus punya kawan tinggal serumah nama dia Isaac hihi die ni handsome jugalah tapi hmmm syg and tk sanggup nak tulis huu. Die ada tumor dekat sebelah mata dia and dh removed pn and die bercinta dengan sorang pompuan ni nama dia Monica. Tp monica ni mintak break bile die dengar yang Isaac ni akan bute sebab lagi satu mata dia kena operate huhu so sad kan. Hmm jahar ngatttttttttttt. Haha tapi part yang Isaac frust gile gile sampai menangis meraung tutup bantal tumbuk dinding tu kelaka hehe sian kat Isaac.

Okay tutup cite pasal Isaac cite balek pasal Hazel and Gus. Gus ni baek sangat die sanggup contact sape tah nama pengarang buku tu, (buku pasal cancer yg Hazel minat gila) Peter Van Houten rasenye semata mata nak tunaikan impian Hazel. So bile dh dapat good respond dorang pn fly la ke Amsterdam. K Amsterdan lawa sgt tk tipu. So time kat sana Hazel mcm kecewa jugalah bile dpt tau yang penulis yg die minat tu alcoholic. And dorang kena perli and marah marah kat situ. 

So end of the story (hehe malas nak cite nak type panjang panjang or you should watch that movie yourself la nt tk surprise k mmg dh tk surprise pn) Gus ni mati hmmmmmmm sedihnya mamaaaaa. Die sakit sebenarnya tapi tk bgtau Hazel pn sebab tanak Hazel sedih and risau. Padahal dia dh tahu yg dia tkleh hidup lama and at that time Hazel pn ada sakit and masuk ward. K part ni mmg aku touched. 

Time kat funeral tu Hazel letak kotak rokok dekat keranda Gus. 
"It's a metaphor."
Teringat ayat ni, Hazel benci giler org merokok haha tapi Augus still nak letak rokok between his teeth. Metafora katanya. 

Banyak sgt quote die yg aku suke so meremang jugalah time die sebut tu time kat movie tu huahua tapi tak nanesh pn I macho B)

Maybe I cite tk menarik but trust me, cite ni serious best.
So kalau cerite dh best, novel lagiii la best 

“My thoughts are stars I can't fathom into constellations.”

“I’m in love with you,” he said quietly."Augustus," I said."I am," he said. He was staring at me, and I could see the corners of his eyes crinkling. "I’m in love with you, and I’m not in the business of denying myself the simple pleasure of saying true things. I’m in love with you, and I know that love is just a shout into the void, and that oblivion is inevitable, and that we’re all doomed and that there will come a day when all our labor has been returned to dust, and I know the sun will swallow the only earth we’ll ever have, and I am in love with you.” 

“Maybe 'Okay' will be our 'always'...” 

“It´s a metaphor: you see, you put the killing thing right between your teeth,you just don't give it the power to do it's killing.”

“Why are you looking at me like that?"Augustus half smiled. "Because you`re beautiful. I enjoy looking at beautiful people, and I decided a while ago not to deny myself the simpler pleasures of existence.” 

“i fell in love with him the way he falls asleep slowly and the at once .”

“Okay? Okay.”

“There are infinite numbers between 0 and 1. There's .1 and .12 and .112 and an infinite collection of others. Of course, there is a bigger infinite set of numbers between 0 and 2, or between 0 and a million. Some infinities are bigger than other infinities. A writer we used to like taught us that. There are days, many of them, when I resent the size of my unbounded set. I want more numbers than I'm likely to get, and God, I want more numbers for Augustus Waters than he got. But, Gus, my love, I cannot tell you how thankful I am for our little infinity. I wouldn't trade it for the world. You gave me a forever within the numbered days, and I'm grateful.”

“Some infinities are bigger than other infinities.” 

Good night lovely people, until then!

Wednesday, January 29, 2014

Miles Away

Miles Away // Memphis May Fire feat. Kellin Quinn (acoustic version)

Hi lovely people what's up 
So tadi baru lepas blog walking hm tkdela blog wakling pn just terusha and terbaca post kak Shake ni oh my Gosh jealous nyaaa dia pergi Europe haihhhh and yang paling best dia tangkap gamba dekat Eiffel Tower Paris okbye 

Tonight i would like talk about F.E.E.L.I.N.G.S ahem B) {yalah dah nak masuk 20 kan kehkeh} 
I bet everyone of us hv experience regarding this matter. What matter? Love matter. 
But before that sorry for my broken English lo i'm no good in English just got muet band 3 pity me.

Love, what is love?
Love sometimes can be matters, yeah love matters.
Who says love hurts? Love doesn't hurt. Loneliness hurts. Rejection hurts. Losing someone hurts. 
Envy hurts.
Well for me i love being in love lolol that's because when you're in love w somebody, you feel like everything around you is easy and there's always someone who always be there for you. Love is when you trust each other with your life and soul and when you would do anything for your other half senang cerita sanggup matilahhhh hahaha *hiperbola sungguh* {bayangkan Titanic}

When you love someone you want nothing more than for them to be truly happy no matter what it takes because that's how much you care about them and because their needs come before your own. You hide nothing of yourself and can tell the other anything because you know they accept you just the way you are and vice versa. 
It's when they're the last thing you think about before you go to sleep and when they're the first thing you think of when you wake up, the feeling that warms your heart and leaves you overcome by a feeling of serenity. It's the smile on your face you get when you're thinking about them and miss them. 

"One word frees us of all the weight and pain of life:
That word is love."
 It's hard to tell your mind to stop loving someone when your heart still does. 
Even if  you hv hated that one person for a long long time the feeling seems won't let go. Do you know how it feels? It feels like your birthday cake the SR one jatuh berderai in front of your eyes. The feeling of frustration and disappointment, yet you still keep those cakes because you still want to eat them.
So my advice here oh please, don't be sohai and move on hehehe.
If you think i'm talking about myself, i'm not talking about myself hotkey lelele.

Okay continue :D

Once the 'hate' feeling is go away, that means you're not hating that person anymore even if you guys are still in contact, you're successfully get over him/her. Yeah that's good (y)

That's all for tonight, keep calm and carry on.
p/s; my mum tak berapa berkenan dengan kelantanese idk why B)
Btw i love this song so so soo much such a beautiful lyrics they got and love Kellin Quinn's voice
Bobai love,

Monday, January 27, 2014

The Story Left Untold

The Story Left Untold // Every Avenue

As i'm listening to this song rn kindly please hear this song too, thanks.

So lovely people, ssup? Thot no one will read this huh as i'm retiring myself from blogging.
You know what hm semester 1 had been a lil bit hard for me it's not that hard actually but the language subjects kill me inside.
And biocalculus too luls idk what's wrong w meh but really i can't make up w maths and numbering for sure so sad so next semester i will face physics oh. my. God. haha 
I do enjoy learning biocalculus rase macam senang je tapi bila exam *continue yourself*
Just hoping for the best for my upcoming result so cuak to the max i tell ya.

And talking about my tutorial class, God bless i really havva such an awesome-nerdy-tutormates yeahh 2 boys and the rest are girls.
Can you imagine that?
Also the best part is they hv their own behavior or characteristic or idk what-to-called that 'perangai' thingy.
Not to mention here but seriously they're really fun to get going (y)

Last night i was laying on the bed and it was 1:30 o'clock thinking about nothing what kind of thought i've been thinking lah haha 

My mom just got back from hukm and that week i'm at usim attending for alsp. Actually i'm scared. Scared of everything scared about the future scared about who i will be scared about getting older. Indeed i'm afraid of age, i'm afraid when my beloved one; my parents will getting old time by time hm. 
My mom was suffering from fibroid for almost like 5 years kott idk the exact time cuz honestly i didn't take serious about that stuff but alhamdulliah she's better now after the operation last week.
Thot it's gonna hurt like hell and it's going to need time heal, the point is, it will heal.
So be brave and brace yourself.
Nothing in this life has no solution, every probs has their own solution, the way we handle it that's really important.

Till then my love, bobai ;)